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Monday, January 03, 2005

	goodbye. catch me if you can =)
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Friday, July 09, 2004

Went to California and all I did was cry. I guess it was the only thing that I did. I couldn't do anything right. Whatever I did was wrong.

"I regret having you as my daughter"

Yea my dad said that and it took him a minute to think about it and say sorry for saying that to me. I know he meant it. I hate me. I hate my life. I hate everything.

Im not close to my family. I would love to. I would love to for once let them be proud of me. Be happy for me. Be there for me. I can't even talk to them. What's wrong with me ?!?!?

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Monday, June 21, 2004

This is my diary. I can write anything in my diary.

I hate everything. I hate my life. I dont understand my parents. I dont understand my life. Everything is so confusing. And now since my papa is here it is more confusing. They dont try to understand me. They are always saying that I am so confusing. But that is how i feel about them too. I can never be good enough for them. I never am. My dad still thinks that im a little girl. But he wants me to do big kid things. I can't go outside anymore. Im on house arrest. I never go outside. Im such a loner. Why does he do that? I dont know. I was bonding with my uncles girlfriend yesterday and she told me everything that happened when she was a teenager. She said that her dad was very traditional like my dad and that she really didnt like him and is still not that close to him. I mean come on now my papa has just been here since March. I still think that he is a stranger. He acts like he has known us for our whole lives. He said that he does and that mama and my grandparents always called and told him everything about me. But guess what I dont know anything about you. Your always talking about when you were little when you were little. But im not you. I wasnt raised in the Philippines. I hate you. Your not trying to get to know me more. Your not taking the time to talk to me about something else instead of school and chores. Why can't you try to be my friend. It was my mama who was my enemy before. Now since your here. You are my enemy and mama is becoming my friend. Mama said that i have to start talking to my papa because he is going to be my best friend one day. I dont think so. Everything is changing. And we have to sleep at 9 during summer break. That is why im trying to sleep later so i can give you a hard time waking me up because of that. Its summer break and not school. Why cant you just bump it up to 10. And the chores. Your are so confusing. Yes I do think that you are confusing. And i dont want to get to know you. You will never be my friend. You never try to be my friend.

You dont know how i feel. You never try to. You make my life harder everyday. I dont need this. Your always saying that if you dont want to help around the house then leave. Then when i asked if i can sleep over jessica's house you said no? They want to adopt me. But i dont want to be adopted. I wanna leave. I hate my life. I dont want to live this crappy life anymore. And you are making it more difficult. My friends became my family. They are always there for me. Never letting me feel bad. Never trying to let me cry. Never saying that im stupid or asking why are you graduating and going to high school if you cant even do a simple thing. Your never proud of me. Im never proud of myself. I do find myself crying a lot. Not infront of anyone but when im just alone and thinking about me. About what i do and about myself. I always want to be myself all the time. Its so peaceful. But other times its so lonely. But i am always thinking. Im always wondering what if i die. What if im not here anymore. Would they care? I always dont know. But i dont think they would care. Im always their problem.

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Monday, June 14, 2004

NOSY

PEOPLE

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Saturday, June 12, 2004

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My Last Week As An 8th Grader

[ o6.15.o4 - tuesday ]

[x] Kennedy?
[x] Cheerleading tryouts?
[x] Pom Pom/Dance Troop tryouts?

[ o6.14.o4 - monday ]

[x] Last Day of School for us 8th graders
[x] Dance

[ o6.11.o4 - friday ]

[x] Six Flags Trip
[x] Digital Camera

It was the worst trip since it was raining. It was fun though.

Mama and Papa bought a digital camera. Oh Yay! hehehehe. I took a picture of almost everything. But i couldn't work it on this computer but it worked on the laptop.

[ o6.10.o4 - thrusday ]

[x] Promotion/Graduation
[x] Algebra Test that I have to pass

The Promotion was ok. It was short and kind of boring but Ok. Here is my dress and my shawl and my bag and shoes. It was so pretty. Too bad we just got the digital camera yesterday. Tito Nomer did my hair. It was so pretty. And he kinda put on toO much make up. But people came up to me and said that i was boOtyfull and sexi. Mwuahaha. Hehehe. Well Kuya Mikko said that the dress was seductive. Whatever!!

The Algebra test was easy. It was so easy. I loved it. I had a great day.

[ o6.o9.o4 - wednesday ]

[x] Dress

The sweetest person in the whole wide world is my Auntie Annie. She fixed my dress. She had time for it. And I thank her for that. So this is what i am going to wear. Im gonna wear a velvet red dress with a black shawl that has beads on its ends and black fancy sandals and a very cute purse. The shawl and bag was Auntie Annie's. She let me borrow them. Yay I love yoOh and THANK YOOH

I heard that the Dance is cancelled. But i dont understand it because I was going to buy my tickets today and we had two more days to buy it. Well its too much i mean its $5. And it only gets you in and also a soda and a pizza. Thats all.

[ o6.o8.o4 - tuesday ]

[x] French test

I took the French 2 final exam today. I know I did so bad. I got a 6 1/2 out of 10 for my oral test. I am failing that class. Darn!

[ o6.o7.o4 - monday ]

[x] Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
[x] Bring my books

__// Went and watched Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban with Tito Nick and my little brother Noel. We went to the theater near the mall. It was very stanky. We bought some food though. Tacos with cheese // large sprite // sour worms.

That person that plays Harry Potter grew up. Well all of them grew up. That person who was playing Malfoy, the so called enemy was kind of cute. Yesh he was. I guess it took them a year to get someone to replace that person who died. And it took them a year to make the movie. It was a good movie but I still like The Lord of the Rings better. Ya know why? Because sexii Orlando Bloom is in it. He is the sexiest man alive...well after Brad Pitt and some other people.

__// Remind me people that I have to bring my Algebra book and Science book.

Dangerously In Love 2

I love you, I love you

Baby, I love you, you are my life
The happiest moments weren't complete if you weren't by my side
You're my relation, in connection to the sun
With you next to me, there's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrops, high in the sea
With you and God, who's my sunlight, I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud, proud to be your girl
You make the confusion go all away from this cold and messed up world

(chorus)
I am in love with you, you set me free
I can't do this thing, a life without you here with me
'Cause I'm dangerously in love with you, I'll never leave
Just keep loving me, the way I love you loving me

And I know you love me, love me for who I am
'Cause years before I became who I am, baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy, easy loving me
But I appreciate the love and dedication from you to me
Later on in my destiny, I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife and I see my whole future in your eyes
The thought of all my love for you sometimes makes me wanna cry
I realize all my blessings, I'm grateful to have you by my side

(chorus x2)

Everytime I see your face, my heart smiles
Everytime it feels so good, it hurts sometimes
Created in this world to love, to hold, to feel, to breathe, to live you
Dangerously in love

I am in love with you, you set me free
I can't do this thing, a life without you here with me (I can't do this thing)
'Cause I'm dangerously in love with you, I'll never leave (I love you, I love you, I love you, I'll never leave you)
Just keep loving me, the way I love you loving me

'Cause I am in love with you, you set me free
(I'm in love with you, I'm in love with you)
I can't do this thing, a life without you here with me (I cannot do, I cannot do anything without you in my life)
'Cause I'm dangerously in love with you, I'll never leave (Holding me, kissing me, loving me)
Just keep loving me, the way I love you loving me

Dangerously, dangerous, dangerously in love with you, dangerous, dangerously
Oh, I love you, love you, love you, love you, love you...

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